Hello! It’s been a while since I last updated this website! However, as the handful of readers who were here before will notice, there used to be a significantly larger number of posts here than there used to be! So what happened to it all? I have made most of my posts here private and reverted most of my posts on the previous website to mere drafts. Why have I done this? A number of reasons.
1) The Political – I had been making a large number of politically charged statements in several of my pieces, and for the most part I stand by the need for an end to government corruption/collusion with big business (see – Harperwatch and Rabble), the necessity of decolonization and nation-to-nation relationship building in the the Country Currently known as Canada (see – websites such as Unistoten Camp’s page or Windspeaker), the severe need for immigration reforms to our ‘indefinate detention’ model (see – Global Detention Project’s website or ‘No One Is Illegal”s various websites) and so on and so forth.
However, other comments, such as the third part of my serious about Niall Ferguson’s Empire (aka – the book that boldly defended a position that has been around for ages), where I ended up doing a very piss-poor arguement that was borderline apologetic of colonialism while trying to argue a separate point, basically revealed a risky behaviour on my part; I tend to run my mouth sometimes and end up saying things that are boneheaded or otherwise liable to land me in a situation that I am simply incapable of seeing through. This, in turn, leads to feelings of anxiety or guilt over what I’ve said.
Put another way, I get worried about what I’ve said and how I’ve said it and even if I simply wish to do fiction for the rest of my life I need to develop more in the way of understanding, relationships and spinal tissue before I can comfortably talk about certain important issues (especially those involving Decolonization and Immigration Reform). In the meantime, I’d prefer to keep details of my political views to myself so that I can sort them out in my free time.
All that said, you should still check these issues out yourself and form your own opinions on them. It’ll be a good thing in the long run.
2) The Pragmatic – All that said, however, this society is still nominally capitalist, and living in such a society means that I need to be able to make a career out of my authorship and writing abilities. This, of course, means that I need to submit my work to as many magazines and publications as I possibly can. However, one rule of this process is that potential pieces must not have been published elsewhere. This, of course, includes publication to online accounts including personal blogs.
To put this into perspective, those parts of my blogsite that weren’t talking about my own personal life like some angsty, needy-for-attention teenager (and they were starting to outnumber the actual writing posts) were all potential submittable pieces that I could no longer submit elsewhere. By removing most of them from the public eye, however, I have opened up literally dozens of Essays, Poems and Short Stories that can now be sent in to another rag of some sort, in turn leading to a greater likelyhood that some editor somewhere will like one of my pieces. I have already gotten published once (check the back issues of Hayclon Magazine to find my ‘World’s Peak’ poem), but I would definately wish for it to happen again and so I need to do everything I can to make that happen.
So what about the pieces that are left? Well those are largely randomly selected from works that I probably have no chance of getting published anywhere or (in the case of ‘Trust’) ones that I promised a friend I’d write. They’re still available for your (toll-free!) enjoyment, so have at it!
3) The Honest – One more thing that I have to admit at this time is that between anxieties over what I’ve published, a decision to post a lot of ‘filler’ about my private life and the way in which those previous two factors led me to sabotage any attempt at publicity, this blog has never attracted a wide readership. Thus I am left to wonder what should be done with the whole thing. Maybe I’ll try to turn it into an actual online portfolio, or maybe I’ll try using it as the platform for a web serial. I may even choose not to do anything at all and instead delete the whole thing. And that’s fine. At this point, though, I mostly don’t want to sink more time, energy and stress into something that seems to be going nowhere fast. And besides, I’ve found that I do some of my best work when I don’t think too much about how an audience is going to respond to it.
So that’s basically it for now, and you can consider this blog ‘indefinately suspended’ until I figure out just what to do with it. In the meantime, keep an eye out for me in the bookstores and magazine racks, because I’m not going to let my assorted personal issues stop me from persuing my career of choice forever!